Sometimes being a writer is not so galmourous…the late nights alone on a laptop... the spilling of Doritos crumbs on a keyboard…the prostitution...
But sometimes, being a writer can be fabulous…such as seeing people in magazine stores reading your column…getting invited to celebrity events…. prostitution...
Monday happened to be one of those fabulous days, a day wherein a picture was taken of me for my column. And the picture was taken by a real photographer... with a real camera ...and a set and a little person who got them water. It was all very futuristic.
But I realized, that beyond my 5ft 2 demeanor…there are actually other reasons why I could and would not ever be a model.
Now I know what you are thinking, “But Kim…models get free coke!”…and dear sweet children, I know I know. In fact when the photographer asked me about photoshopping after I asked if he could get rid of my track marks. He seemed to laugh…slightly..but maybe it was more of a nervous laugh. Although I figured he must be used to getting rid of track marks all the time.
Let me get into the grit; the problem with modeling. The problem with modeling is that people tell you you are beautiful, even when you are not.
It aint all Tyra Banks screaming in your face , "I said, smile with your eyes...with YOUR EYES!..."
I was standing there, water in hand, the makeup artist staring at me. “You like, yes?” she said.
I stared at my face in the mirror, close to naked. “Umm..maybe I need a bit more shadow? I don’t really have on a lot of makeup…”
Makeup Girl- “No no, you are beautiful, you look great, you don’t need anymore, you are beautiful.”
Me – “Um ok…Well, maybe my hair should be a bit more straightened in the back and not parted directly across my face.”
Hair Girl- “No no, you look great, you look beautiful. Leave your hair as is!”
Me- “Umm ok…well maybe I shouldn’t be posing next to this 15 foot reptile covered in peanut butter ...”
Photographer -“No no you are beautiful, just stand there in the lizard’s mouth and smile…”
Well ok, so maybe there wasn't EXACTLY a lizard in the shoot…but seriously, when did people ignoring my concerns become ok as long as I was complimented?
It doesn’t work like this in reality!
Me- “Well maybe my we should double check that lump in my breast because I think that…”
Doc –“No no, you are beautiful! Who needs tests? You look great!”
This must be the problem with all models and actors. They are being lied to on a consistent basis. I enjoy being lied to as much as the next woman, but this was a little much, sometimes when I need more damn eyeshadow all I am really asking for…is more damn eyeshadow.
